As I approach the big 3-0 so many thoughts have been going through my mind. I remember when I was just 18, then I felt like I had the world in my hands. I just came of age, I could vote, i could take alcohol if I wanted * I had already started taking brandy behind my mom's back*Even though i was already in higher institution, I didn't act like one. I was one of those girls that they called Jambito in 200level. When I clocked 18, I consciously told myself things had to change. As it has always being with me, once my birthday approached, thoughts of death will plague me. I think of all the things that I had planned to do that I had not yet accomplished. It was like a day for stock taking and resolutions making for me,year-in, year-out. I always lashed myself at every point that I had not gone the extra mile where it is always less crowded. It is different this year.
Instead of death, I have been thinking of life.
Instead of sadness, I am overwhelmed with joy.
Instead of lashes, I feel so thankful.
Let me not get all religious here but God has been too good to me.
There are times that I feel like I am the apple of his eyes* I guess we are many* but then again, I am. Even this feeling is His gift to me and I am so thankful.
It took me a while to get here, I am not thinking of the time,but that I am here.
I am thankful for my life because I am so blessed.
Where do I start from? Is it my family and all the love and affection they shower at me? Is it the fact that I have a job that pays the bills and that I can go to everyday? Is it in my friends? Is it the fact that my 'bone' found me and together we have a solid evidence to show our love in Kay? The list is endless.
Yes I still have things that I have not checked on my to-do-b4-30 list but I am still thankful
